and the beat goes on..

Yea., well, it has been over two months since I blogged last. I guess I didn't do it because I didn't feel like I had much to say. But now that I am thinking about it, this is kinda a good stress reliever to get all my thoughts out there, and to no one inparticular.

So, what three weeks til Christmas now?!? I am very excited for this year. I am ready for the kids to wake up in the morning and rush down and see want santa has brought them. I treasure every happy moment I have with those two. I am their sister, but sometimes I feel like an aunt because I am so much older than they are. I just love them so much. Matt, who is ADHD and Kaci, ADD, have their problems but on the rare occasions that we all do get along it is amazing. Dad and I had a heart to heart the other night about Matt. The medicine that he is taking now is making him angry and very stressful on the family. They went back to the doctor and he has decided that maybe Matt might need and anti-depressant. This scares me. He is only 9! I mean, yes he does have some anger problems but I don't think it is depression. I have never been to one of these sessions with dad and matt and have never met the doctor but I am skeptical. We looked up online a doctor from California that speacializes in 5 different types of ADHD and one of his treatments is with anti-depressants. I don't know what to think. I want my little brother to be ok but I don't know how extreme this really is. I know that in our lives we should be thankful for the things we are given and should try to look toward the goodness but it seems so hard to right now. Yes, I am thankful for my family and my friends. I pray that he will be alright and I don't know how to help him. I want to do things with him and take him out and do things but it always ends up in a fight. It is just so hard. He has his moments where he is great! I love his sense of humor and whenever he and kaci are not around eacher other, he is usually a very good child. But I am not sure if she annoys him that much or if he just really can't take it.

But for now I will be thankful for the many blessings that I have. Christmas is a time to celebrate loved ones and I fully plan on doing just that. :)