it's been a while

wow. so i just realized how long it has been since i last wrote! i have been extremely busy! but that is no excuse! last week was my 20th birthday.. very exciting! :) so to start off the weeks worth of festivities. LAST saturday night i spend the night with kristin and cameron came over and we watched prime and played twister (like we were 10 again) but it was so much fun! then sunday i went to church with kristin and then picked up bmo and headed out to the lake to hang out with kristin and float. i didn't wear sun screen cause i didn't think we would be gone that long.. but of course we were.
on monday kristin took me out to eat for my birthday. we went to chilis and had our usual of cajum shrimp pasta and chicken crispers. she got me a hillarious card and the coolest sack ever! it sang! and it sang celebration! it was filled with great goodies of sour patch kids, mini uno cards, a crown (which i specificially asked for) thanks kristin, and many many other things! after our large dinner we went to braums for ice cream which made it even better.
tuesday was my actual birthday. we had pot luck at lunch at work. that's always a good day because we have some pretty good cooks up her! i brought my famour broccoli and rice casserole! yumm.. and all of it was gone! good day! that night dad cooked hamburgers and hot dogs on the grill and shannon, tate, and bmo, and papa bill, and aunt renee all came out to celebrate... we had a good time!
the rest of the week til friday ran as usual.
friday i took off work to go shopping with shannon and shelly. we went to mesquite and i got a new pair of jeans and a few tshirts just to wear to class ebcause i will be gone practially the entire day. we also ate at our all time favorite restraunt. olive garden. i want to know what they put in their dressing because it's about the greatest there is! we didn't get back to town til about five so that night we all setteled in at randy and shellys to watch a movie.
saturday i slept in (for the first time in a while). when i finally got up I went to the gym to work out and to tan. and when i got home i washed my car since we were taking it canoeing on sunday. i finally took a shower and got ready because myself, bmo, dad, and matt were all going over to frisco to watch ther rough riders play baseball. if you don't know, the rough riders are the AA minor league team of the texas rangers. and since the rangers can't seem to win we decided to go over there. turns out since we didn't purchase tickets beforehand we had to sit in the grass in the outfield, which didn't turn out too bad actually. no home runs but bmo and i made friends with the left fielder. :) steve murphy. haha. when we finally got back it was around midnight so i called it a night cause i knew we had a big day coming up!
SUNDAY! sunday i woke up nice and early cause we were leaving at 11 to head to oklahoma canoeing. shannon called around nine and asked if i could come help her walk dogs at cooters vets office since he was running behind. so she and i walked about 6 dogs and then we finally got all of us together and headed out! 8 people total in the bus! bmo and i were canoeing partners and we never tumped over but hey thats good! we did both fall out haha.. and i am sure today but it was so much fun! it took us about 4 to 5 hours to get down the river. and my oak broke twice! but it was still a good day!

borad games!

so. kristin, cameron, and i have our weekly board night which usually consists of monopoly but last night we conviced laura to come over so we could team up to play cranium. i have never played cranium and of course i was lost and with cameron as my partner it didn't help when he couldn't guess lifeguard! GRR! haha. but it was fun and him humming she's a brick house! hillarious! after kristin and laura had won we switched partners and laura and i did well. I even guessed walter kronkite with one clue! GO ME! but i had just watched the e true hollywood story of jfk so it was fresh on my mind. it was fun! then of course we had to take a break for the singing bee. this weeks show did not impress me and the lady who was the final winner was not fun to watch! she needed some support kristin decided. the contestant from last week was hillarious! so my hopes are still good for the singing bee i guess. :) oh. i almost forgot. we watched america's got talent (on mute) while we were playing our game becuase i was excited about seeing cas. but of course there were only 10 performers last night so i guess he will be on tonight. kristin, laura, and i did find some pretty good entertainment. there were four boys. well mid twenties i am guessing and they did dancing/kong fu fighting with flips and kicks. we were quite interested. then the shirts came off. i think i voted 5 times for them. WOO! but then i had my trek back to paris. i hate driving home! why is paris so far from clarksville. don't get me wrong. it's only thirty minutes but ugh. i am so tired about blossom.. but when i got home the kids were still awake! my goodness! they should have seriosly been sleeping! but i surely did not want to watch halloweentown before going to bed! GRR! but that's all i have to say about that.

stupid boys.

ok so. shannon tells me i am too picky when it comes to guys. i know this. i have never decided on what i want. i just know i know what i don't want. progress right? well. i have figured out why i am so picky. becuse everytimei let myself get a little attached to a guy something happens and he wants to be stupid and not date. i knew it would be hard with tray considering we started talking the day before he left to travel welding for work. well things were good for week. we talked every day. and things were fine and then he started calling me baby. WHAT? i am not fan of pet names. and then he calls me that after not even one week. please. so i hardly talked to him on saturday and then sunday he texts and says he doesn't want a girlfriend. yes. i knew it would be hard but don't tell me you want to settle down and have a girlfriend and then not the NEXT DAY! goodness. so this morning he texts me to apologize and keeps saying "i never meant to hurt you" UGH! you didn't. you are just another dumb boy with the same dumb problems as all the rest of them. i wish someone would tell me where they found their good guys cause i am sure looking the wrong places!

randomnesss....

fire works! i had forgotten i had no fireworks pictures. but this is the only one i am going to put on here. it's the prettiest. and there is also one of dad as he lit about 6 bottle rockets attached together and they never took off.. just sort of exploded in the garss. but no one was hurt and matt that it looked pretty cool. this is shannon. she is quite hillarious. as you can tell. we are headed to justin and maranda's wedding here. and she just so happens to love those pink shades!

saturday night i was invited to take pictures at The Depot of a new band since the place was opening up this week. Everything looks amazing and the atmostphere is great. If you are of age you should go check it out. Plus the Bistro is open 7 days a week!

after our trip to the depot shannon and i headed out to blossosm to the mud boggs. a place where some genius said "hey with all this rain let's run the waterhose out there and just see how muddy we can get it.. and then let all the rednecks in red river and lamar counties see how bad they can get their trucks stuck." well.. they did a pretty dang good job. haha. it was quite entertaining. some people were mud wrestling. but otherwise a good night.

so sunday after my long night at the mud olympics, i went to church with kristin and then we had game night at her house. we have been wanting to play monopoly so cameron brought it over. of course kristin and i talked alot of smack and cameron ending up winning with his stupid hotels and houses! GRR! but then we played scrabble and i won so it all was good.

last night, wednesday, i was staying at renee's house so cameron and kristin came over and we cook spaghetti and were going to play board games.. again. as we were cooking cameron randomly runs into a wall and breaks a candle holder. thanks alot CAMERON! but it was cleaned up and i still feel kind of bad.. ugh. but anywho. we ate and i mad the best garlic bread ever.. if i do say so myself! props to kristn for finding it. OH YES! in wal mart there is NO GARLIC BREAD! appreantly cicis ran out or soemthing. WHO WOULD TAKE ALL THE GARLIC BREAD! but we carried on and made our home made which was better i think. cameron wasn't fond of my crusty bread, but i dug it.

we got side tracked watching america's got talent, CAS HALEY MADE THE TOP 20! WAHOO!. and then we made cameron watch the singing bee. :) and then we had to compare it to don't forget the lyrics. i really like the singing bee better. the kristin and i put cameron through torture from last comic standing. i have to say it's one of the greatest shows EVER. "BOOTS! make me look like alabama going to the grammy's in 1982!" extremely random. but krstin and i have some really random comedy quotes. and they all went over camerons head which made it even more funny!

post candle holder breaking but we are all smiles. TATA FOR NOW!

ok. it's official. i don't want to be an adult. i want to be able to do the kids things i guess. i am not ready for the responsibility that i have coming my way right now. the stupid liars and crazy people in my family are driving me nuts. i don't know what to do anymore. i can't be the one to do this. why do i have to be the one to grow up so fast and why are all the adults being children? this is not the way my life is supposed to be. i am taking my life by the reins and chosing my own destiny. yes, ultimately it is God who chooses that but I am not going to let some peope have effect on me. Sunday night i went to church with Kristin and the sermon was about revelation. it was a great sermon considering my current situation. i know my grandmother is in heaven. she was not perfect. i know this. but that woman was a saint for putting up with my grandfather and her daughters. they have put her through hell and now i see how bad it is. she was a wonderful woman and i am in great debt to her for all the wonderful things she has done for me. i know she and my granny are in heaven now at some big slot machine and playing cards cause that is what they each loved to to. i know i will see them both some day but i wonder if my memaw will see her husband or her children. or does she even want to. yes she loved them more than anything in this world but the things these people did dilberatly to her is something no one should ever have to go through. i want more than anything to see her happy. i know she is happy now. i just want to take a day that i don't have someone breathing down my neck. or someone telling me what i need to do. or lies. gosh i am so sick of lies. i am a very honest person and do not appreciated what these people are doing to me or the other people who love them. but that is all for now. get some of my frustrations out.

july 5

so today makes it only 19 days til my birthday! woooo. i am always very excited about birthdays. it doesn't have to be mine.. i just love celebrating. a friend of the family turns 21 on 7-7-07. we told him to go to the casino! he has got to have some luck in there somewhere! but 20 won't be much but celebrating with the family. dad and i talked about going to a frisco roughriders game. i love baseball and since the rangers can't seem to win i will settle for soem aaa ball.

yesterday was the fourth, of course, and we had some people out last night. cooked fish and shot plenty of fireworks. no pictures as of right now because i forgot my camera.. but soon enough. i really enjoyed the compnay and a few people brought their kids. they played frisby in the yard and got plenty muddy! but you could tell they were having a great time. i talked to jill most of the day. i went to high scchool with her but she and i were never really friends and then last night we just talked and talked. always good to find new friends. i do have to say that i love my oldies.

life... well i hope is looking up. everytime i think maybe it gets a little bit better soemthing seems to happen to say nope... don't get up yet!! i had a very pleasant conversation with my mother the other day. i was very excited. our conversations are few and far between but i am trying. it is hard to talk to her because it seems as if all she wants to talk about is the bad situation. but i am a posative person and i want to look in the good of it all. i am hoping she will get out of this situation and if it takes some drastic measures i am willing to take them. i just want her life to be better... and mine as well. some of the things she has done in the past has hurt me so bad. but i can't dwell on the past.

on a better note... i talked to my borther in iraq. it seems he is doing well and will be home in a few months. VERY EXCITED! i just hope he stays safe between now and then.

that's all for now. pictures will come soon! :)

kaci loves her stuffed animals and to get into the spirit of things we watched happy feet on the way to the aquarium!

hello! well. it's almost july the fourth! i am very excited about this holiday! our family will be cooking and shooting fireworks since the large display from our town decided to cancel from rain. i never knew it could be too wet for fire works!! GRR! but we move forward and will have a wonderful time at home.

this past weekend we took a little road trip to dallas to go to the childrens agquarium. it was so exciting! we got to watch them feed alligators and penguins.